One of the most challenging things to do is to start over. It’s even worse when you’re forced there. Because I am such a spontaneous and free spirited person, I find myself consistently knocking down the same horse. SELF DOUBT! I soon then realized, that if I am going to run on the tracks of faith and prosperity, I have to trust EVERY decision I make; both good and bad. Most people don’t think that I too get scared, nervous, and shaky about my decisions and future, because I’m the one normally shelling out the encouragement; however the truth is, I encourage others while encouraging myself. I understand the importance of being repetitive in positivity. Therefore, it’s easier to remind myself when my testing times roll around…which is a lot! I never want to consult others if I’m not sure within myself. I’ll be doing them a disservice.
Today, right now, at this very moment, I made my way back to square one. It’s sort of like going from caviar to tuna sandwiches, very humbling to say the least. Is going back to square one a bad thing? To me it depends on how you perceive it. I look at each situation as an opportunity. A time to prove myself to be who I say I am. Right now I see going back to square one as an opportunity to sharpen the hustler in me. How hungry am I to make it to where I desire? How far am I willing to push myself to make it where I need to be despite my failures? That’s what I perceive going back to square one as. I’m going to be honest, it’s far more easily said than done. I have just found an easier way to cope and quickly bounce back to a stilled spirit and leveled mind. It’s easier for me to be outdoors by a lake listening and watching–tapping into all my natural senses without effort and being grateful. Grateful for all that I am, all that I have, and all that I will obtain. If I have to cry, I cry. If I have to laugh, I laugh. If I have to sit still and not move, that is exactly what I do. It’s a quick reminder to not let myself get in the way of my purpose that has already been given. I just have to obtain it.
As Napoleon Hill says, “Whatever the mind can conceive and believe the mind can achieve.” Trust in yourself and allow yourself to make mistakes. We are all made imperfect, and it is those imperfections that make us unique. Own it and love thyself just as you would love another. Trust, believe and have patience that your life will manifest and take its true form just as it should. You are right where you need to be at this very moment. So, breathe easy!
“Be patient when it seems things are not going right and may never be right again. Accept that what is yours will come to you in the right way at just the right moment.”- Iyanla Vanzant