I was on the phone talking to my Mom about my upcoming plans and I reiterated to her what I told myself when I got back from my conference in April. I walked in my apartment, literally dropped my bags, looked around and thought:
“How foolish I am to want all these in my apartment where I may not stay over the year. I get you want to make a house your home, but how stupid. You have paintings on the wall, drapes you never borrow to open, and a table, a durable one I add, and you never use it–NEVER! What is the sense to have all these things and they’re of no usage?”
Immediately after that thought I began taking everything down and boxing them up. When I think of it now, for me, it’s really pointless and a bit vain to have had all that stuff up. Prior before, I only came home basically to shower and sleep. It was ridiculous. Between work and other stuff, I was on the rat wheel. I know those things and the time requested for it has its season, but I’m so over it. All of it! Today I spend a lot more time at home. I’m not the hosting type so I don’t have millions (I’m exaggerating) of people coming over. I mean it would be fun, but when someone else offers, why argue. Gatsby can have that! lol Those things mean squat and let’s be honest, half of the time its to impress other people. I want out.
It’s funny how the universe works. Yesterday the movie Into the Wild starring Emile Hirsch sort of fell into my lap. It’s about a boy named Christopher who just graduated college and decided to go on a journey to Alaska. He cut up his bank cards, donated the rest of his college fund, and burned his social security card. I know a bit extreme, but I totally get it! He basically dropped everything and went on a journey to live his life. I haven’t finished watching it yet, but I will tonight. After watching the trailer on YouTube, I brushed past this comment.
” @EagelhawkAves -We go to school, get a job, live a normal every day is the same life, get married have kids and die. Yes, there are nice things in between, it’s not all depression and whatnot through life. But it’s true that you spend 80% of your life working and resting for work just so your children could do the same and their children too. It’s kind of totally programmed and it’s like we’re just robots, doing what we’re told. No enjoyment, no free thought, no nothing… Into The Wild is something amazing and it has inspired me to do what I’ve wanted to do for a long time. “
I have nothing more to say because that comment says everything I have been trying to say for years now. It makes you think. Misbehavior is not really misbehavior at all, but just an act trying to find its niche – Into The Wild.