In this business and in life, well in my personal work and life – I don’t want to speak for anyone else, I have no desire to be or show everything, with everyone.
Am I secretive? Absolutely not, I’m an open book. I’m Sharing My World for crying out loud. lol I’m just the lost personality type. I’m an #ambivert.
I’m the person you can turn up with, but I’m also the person who will go crazy without her quiet spaces. 📚✒
I was born an introvert and bred an extrovert.
This is really how I am when I go out! Dancing like there’s no tomorrow! 😀
Being an ambivert has an awkward place. Because the extroverts aren’t introverts, and introverts aren’t extroverts. So when my extroverted self has taken the back seat, extroverted people give me a headache! Because when you’re clam, somethings HAS TO BE WRONG. -_–
Then with introverts, they lack the capacity sometimes to live. Like living to them, may be cooped up in the house with books and Netflixs. But what I mean is to get out there and burn the midnight oil, to enjoy life and the space of others. Like…that just BURNS MY SOUL. Never will I ever waste my life away. Life is out there for you to enjoy. ENJOY IT! So as you can imagine, when my blood gets pumping and my spidie senses are in gear, this is going to sound harsh, but introverts annoy me.
Essentially, I’m a walking contradiction.
Just imagine when I sit with people I consult who has fears of taking a leap of faith, or those who are doubting themselves, believe I’m lying when I tell them I understand and that I’m an introvert.
Their responses: What? Get outta here. You’re lying, you’re a total extrovert.
I’m very open, but on certain topics I pull back. Depending on how I’m responding to a question, if I’m stuttering, that means your touching something personal and I’m trying to pull back without saying back off a little or I don’t want to talk about. That’s the introverted me talking. I’m a thinker. I like to think stuff out before I respond or share anything.
Usually with work, networking etc., I’m extroverted to the highest degree available. I’m there to capture the cup, the golden globe, take over the superbowl..everything! I am a lioness at work. I’m THAT chick! lol Stop looking, you’ve found her. -extrovert all the way.
People ask me all the time, how am I so confident? My mother! lol She’s no soft cookie and will straighten up before you realize it. Here’s my REAL answer. Normally before I step into the room filled with people, I’ll have a quick pep talk with myself. You see, anything I do professionally is not for my personal gain. It’s for others. For what I can give back. Therefore, at ANY hint of doubt, nerves, or fear, I literally scold myself and say,
“STOP BEING SELFISH! This is not about you. You have a job to do, get in there and DO IT!”
Yea..introvert Sarah, have a seat. Extroverted Sarah is taking charge!
In a nutshell…for “Me and my relationships – that is my space to unplug, calm down, be submissive, girly, soft and vulnerable – sides of me that people don’t see everyday.” –@evierobbie