Me not blogging in weeks? No, no…that’s so not me, right?! lol If anything I’m posting 2 posts in one day! haha Anyhow, let’s get to it.
Where have I been?
I am now the proud owner of my very own consulting company. It’s both very exciting and terrifying, being 25 and owning your own company. Talk about the unknown; massive!
You know its funny how life works. When you leap, that is when the tide changes dramatically! I mean I get it, I’m disrupting my normal routine, but geez, I thought for a second that maybe I had made a premature decision.
Did I jump to early?
The past few days have been the most challenging of this year. All in one breath I get into an accident (totaled), hear my dad has bone cancer (one of the worst), and then deal with the emotional rift raft of not having my own space and sharing chaotic energy with others. I’m talking about that unaware, spewing out of control type energy. Honestly, the last part has been by far the worst! I’ve been stunted in my personal work because of the mental exhaustion. I’m just exhausted thinking about it. Ugh! smh
One day in between those days I sat and said to myself, “Thank God I’m not a week person. THANK GOD, because…” *exhales Man..
Well, I am proud of the reigning voice in my head that kept speaking life, encouragement, and purposeful inspiration to TRUST MY PROCESS. Facebook has really been my safe haven, because it was there that I was consistently posting to self encourage and inspire myself! I mean, I couldn’t understand why all the pressure was happening, or why it needed to happen for that matter. However, I relentlessly told myself to trust the purpose behind all of it. I believe nothing in our lives happen without purpose, so surrendering to it is the least resisting route to take.
Do I regret my decision to leap?
Not for a second!! An I say that with an overwhelming feeling of certainty. Many people believe that when the waters get rough early on, that it’s a sign or a red light signifying something went wrong. Well, that assumption is incorrect. As I said before, when you make the decision to leap, you are disrupting habitual action and routine. Therefore, it’s going to be a little chaotic, frustrating, and emotionally charged. If not, it will be extreme at first! I’m just being honest because it got there for me a few times, emotionally. It’s plain and simple that you’re not used to the new system yet. If anything, you’re still trying to create the system.
Cut yourself some slack, and breathe!! Take it one step at a time. You have no choice. Because the road less traveled, has to be traveled one step at a time.
“And sorry I could not travel both. And be one traveler, long I stood. And looked down one as far as I could.”-Robert Frost,The Road Not Taken 1920